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Friday, August 06, 2004
Pessimist's Suicide Song
Dead hour is on high,
Weakling sighing
Days to appear,
See nothing clear
Hope is diminishing…
Where to find the love to supply at least for a day?
Life tries to strive, tries to get away
Posted at 15:06 by catrix
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Thursday, May 27, 2004
Where are you?
i guess i miss you...
i know there really is nothing
that can ever take place between us
but i think i still like you.
looking for you,
waiting for you to
reach out...
Posted at 09:58 by catrix
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Monday, April 19, 2004
well I just cant believe it!
i got so excited when i saw him...
he's just so beautiful!
he's alone, no ring on his fingers
but i didn't have the guts to say hi!
of all the times that i've been spunky...
why did i fold that day?!
i could have said hello
but NO! i let it slipped off my hands,
an elusive opportunity
that may never happen again...
heck! i even hold on to that Latin phrase:
"Carpe Diem"
what a hypocrite!
when will i ever see that gorgeous eyes again?
will i ever get the chance to taste that sweet lips?
i can only sigh in exasperation...
*RDC is Rey dela Cueva-i can consider him as my 1st love
but when he asked me if he can court me i turned him down.
Ghost of RDC is that gorgeous guy i've been obsessing since college...
Posted at 17:33 by catrix
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Wednesday, April 14, 2004
What's up with you?
It's so seldom that we talk
and each time we do you insist on setting up a "date"
i was fine with it before but not anymore...
i know you are doing this primarily because you know how to push my buttons
and i know it's my fault that i've revealed too much...
want to tell you just in case you don't get it...
you are THAT guy i'm saying i really like
i've been dodging your question about him because im too embarassed to tell...
don't really know why i did like you my guess is that maybe because i let you see through me...
HOPEFULLY, if you came across this entry you'll see my point!
really don't find it a compliment...
Posted at 15:28 by catrix
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Tuesday, April 06, 2004
I can not love you in slices....
Posted at 09:12 by catrix
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Sunday, March 28, 2004
A spell that begun the day i turned 22 was supposed to be broken today
but it didn't push through due to lack of plans.
so i lay there craving...
yet satisfied!
glad there're no hormones raging anymore,
just an obsessive mind that argues with itself
and as i wrote this i promised not to make a date
with any spell breaker again...
~im hoping to keep my promise...~
Posted at 14:58 by catrix
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daisy's unquenched thirst
clouds formed announcing the coming of the rain
it got excited so it opened up wide and raised it's head to the sky
waiting the downpour
a bee flew by and tried to play with it
but it was just shooed away
and so it waited, waited and waited
then suddenly a gush of wind blew the clouds away
revealing the mighty sunshine that added thirst
to the perched flower
wishing it didn't shoo the bee away
Posted at 14:43 by catrix
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Monday, March 08, 2004
I want to free myself of his ghosts...
Why?
Well, as hard for me to believe it, I want to be free because someone caused a crack on my wall. We only spent a few hours of our lives together but I know what im feeling...
Even if there are a lot of things that hinders any possibilities of an "us," including him...still glad to be feeling that. It gives me hope that my heart can once again trust and eventually love.
Who cares if I get beaten up again?
Although as of the moment the thought of being alone works fine with me, yet I open my mind to whatever will come my way.
Soon enough I'll know EXACTLY. My ground will not be shaken again and I'll be a cliche...STRONGER!
Posted at 22:01 by catrix
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I'm breaking down inside, no one can save me because I refuse to...
What is so wrong with being alone? I didn't have nobody inside my mom's womb for nine months which is a lifetime.
Will it mean that I lost? To be old and alone...
Damn! I'm crying like a stupid shithead...
Yes! I still love him...and yes the wound is too deep, still too sore.
Thoughts of him, of the past haunt me like the air that I breathe.
Founding replacement after just a couple of weeks of sharng a moment of bliss is a big slap in the face, I loved him with the wholeness of my being.
I don't wish to be back in his arms but it's so damn hard to forgive someone who know the damage he has caused and yet made no effort to apologize.
I need to forgive him to forget the pain...
I forsake my faith and I disobeyed my God for our relationship ...
And I can't stop condemning myself and I refuse to return to Him and ask Him to heal me and to embrace me once again. To take away the pain, to mend my badly crushed heart.
In perfect time as always...
Posted at 20:41 by catrix
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Saturday, February 28, 2004
The boy smiles
And the beat goes wild
Memory of the taste of his
Sweet lips
Keeps the wings of the butterflies
Fluttering
So exhilarating
Just to imagine
The look that goes her way
As he savors the sweet musky scent
Of this girl that pours out her heart’s
Content on a piece of paper.
Posted at 10:47 by catrix
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catrixSeptember 11th Female Philippines
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